“I guess I should put Danny in the loop, shouldn’t I?”
Both Nate & Brian nodded silently.
“Do you know why I bought cough drops tonight?”
“Because you have mono?” Danny asked, concerned.
“Uh...no. It’s because I didn’t want to hack through me telling you that I’m gay.”
It’s sucked not being able to tell Danny since us Guys are pretty close and he’s been the odd man out the last few weeks, but he lives in the city and has a pretty active social life, so it’s been difficult getting a chance to. But since we were getting together in the suburbs on one of the last days of his midterm break, I was going to go for it because I knew my next chance wasn’t going to be for a while.
So after dinner and purposely picking up cough drops to fight this stupid cough I’ve had all week so I could tell him, I just went for it. He seemed sort of perplexed at first, but proud of me for telling him. I think he was (and still is?) sort of unsure where the boundaries are talking about my sexuality with me, because he got really quiet afterwards and didn’t really ask me much until he overheard me later in the night talking to Nate about maybe going to a rock climbing class with an LGBT climbing group (more on that later). He started to ask me a few questions after that, with a lot starting with “I hope you don’t mind me asking, but...”. We've got a little bit of work to do there, but I'm happy all The Guys know and are cool with it. Danny even offered to set me up to go clubbing with a lesbian friend of his. Interesting offer, clubbing isn’t really my thing, but again it’s nice to know that the support is there.
Also interesting is when we were in the car leaving Danny’s place, Nate and Brian were telling me how relieved they were that I had told him. I guess they were feeling pretty awkward every time Danny made a gay joke with them knowing about me. Brian even got really apologetic about making those jokes around me in the past too, since he must have realized how uncomfortable it was for me, which I really appreciated. I don’t hold any resentment against them, it’s just one of those ways masculine guys tease each other, but I’m glad they’ve seen the error of their ways.
All in all, a good Friday night :)